Running and Splat

I took the day off to spend with Maya for her Easter break, but instead became convinced during the night that I had a DVT and a pulmonary embolism ( spent all day Friday on the train from Baltimore to New York and back and Sunday from Baltimore to DC and back), so I decided to visit Patient First for a checkup (I called my OB and was told to call my internist who could not see me today and I could not face the ER) and was pleased with the speed and care I got. My EKG was fine, with a pulse of 52 and a BP of 100 over 48. The Doppler Ultrasound was benign, so the leg pain and chest pain and SOB I had at Yoga class yesterday were all manifestations of anxiety and despair.

I learned last Monday that the lease for our office space (I share with several therapists) was up in five weeks and I had to find a new office space immediately. I was horrified! But that meant that instead of spending the day with Maya for her holiday, looking for office space was most important. I left Maya home with Eric to 'chill' ( which she loves to do and never gets enough of). It turned out she had a great day fixing up her room and pursuing projects ( I bought a kit to design a house for her at MOMA and she is thrilled with it) and practiced violin and then went out with Eric to buy some fish and a tank, which she installed in the sunroom and was excited and happy to show me when I got home. She had expressed interest in going to the aquarium, but going to the fish store proved equally exciting, and it was delightful to see her so happy.

I looked at some office possibilities and then met with the other therapists in my office space to discuss options. It appears that we have a good possibility and there are further details to sort out among us, but I believe it will work out. Whew! So much stress. I want to sign the lease before we leave for Munich on Sunday. There is much renovation to do in the suite, and I want an address to give to my patients when I come back March 2.

I came home to a very happy child, who showed me each of her new fish and one blue crayfish and each had a name and a character. They are Amazon fish with an Australian crayfish, the most regal being the 'black ghost', one of the species that Eric has in his lab.

Maya did not want to go to yoga with me tonight. We had rushed home from our day in DC yesterday to participate in Sid's class in the evening and Maya was ver inspiring for the whole class, she truly is very good at yoga and puts me to shame. But it is an intense class and tough to do two days in a row. She fiddled with her fish while I sweated and stretched and once home we all had dinner together and discussed fish some more.

I realized that Maya really needed a relaxing day. I push and run all the time and drag her with me everywhere. Yesterday after her hour with her accompanist Jake, we picked up Belina and drove to DC to see the collection at the Hirschorn and the Dutch galleries at the National Gallery and the sculpture gardens, and although Maya was not too enthusiastic at first, she did appear to enjoy herself as the day progressed. But she was exhausted, especially after yoga, and wanted to do nothing for one day.

My friend Emily believes that I have some sort of odd genetics, because I sleep so little and do so much and have indefatigable energy all the time. Eric and Maya move so much more slowly, and I get frustrated with them, but perhaps they are equally frustrated with me.