Lazy Monday

My practice is not happening. I had a lazy day today and the rest of the week is half full. I am traveling to Montreal Thursday to celebrate Tara's 21st birthday, so I did not book Wednesday, thinking originally that I would go on her birthday. Instead, I have all this free time and that makes me nervous. I ought to enjoy it, instead I worry about paying bills.

I was able to get to a pilates class and a yoga class and a visit to the Apple store to contemplate a new laptop. Tara needs to replace her old laptop and I offered her my old one, but she decided it was not what she wanted. I am running out of space in my two year old one, and will be obliged to buy a new one in the next few months anyway. I am not sure Tara realized how expensive these things are....but her father is always willing to give her money, so she will get what she wants anyway. I guess I feel that at that age I did not get whatever I wanted and worked for things and had to delay gratification, but children today are so much more entitled. Of course, now in my 50s, I too cannot have what I want, and have to work to pay for what I want, so little has changed from my 20s. I guess I am trying to sort out my feelings about this.