Still Sick

I did not have a voice today and could hardly hear anything....and managed to see patients from 8:45 to 7:30 PM. I am not sure how I did that, but I do feel wasted....I must sleep well because I return to the neurosurgeon tomorrow for a followup and decision regarding surgery. I am afraid I will look so very pathetic!

Neurologically I look good, but surgery may still be the best option for me. Lots of decisions to make in the next weeks.

Maya was doing her violin project and looking up sites and ran into a porn site that freaked her out. She was clearly fearful and disturbed and cried and cried and cried. It never occurred to me that this would happen. I have never been redirected to pornography in all the time I spend on the computer and now we have set limits on all the computers in the house but not in time to protect her from such horrors. She is so young and innocent and deserves to be protected and I have failed her. Eric is less disturbed than I am, not sure what that means. Life is certainly more complicated now than it was when I was 10.